I enjoyed the retreat. While it was a working retreat and we spent hours talking about ministry, I actually felt safe. Detached, even, from all the trials that have been plaguing me this season. And for the first time in a long while, I got affirmation that this was were God wants me in this season. You won't believe how greatful I am for the brief respite in the midst of this hurricane.

I'm still facing rough seas, and all that talk about having Christ as our anchor is not as easy as it sounds, especially when it's not just your ministry but your personal life that's whacking you left right and centre. I can safely say now that I've never been more drained than in this season. And I hear things that people say are being said about me, things that I feel are not entirely true, and it's annoying how there's no way to defend myself against such accusations made behind my back. No wonder they say "hang in there", because really, that's about all one can do in such situations.

This morning it was just so hard to sing "I Surrender All" with everybody else.

posted by NEB at 3:48 PM

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