I felt it as I closed in prayer. To invite them to come forward and respond. But I held back. Maybe out of fear. Doubt. I dunno. Perhaps just as the winds and waves made Peter doubt and start to sink, I too started to doubt and wonder why on earth I was out there walking on water. And I regret it. Lives could have been ministered to that morning.

Well, life goes on. No sense beating myself up over this. I've got new hurdles to jump anyway. And it looks like I have a new theme verse for a new season - again from 1 Corinthians, but from chapter 13 this time. Kind of a timely reminder. I don't deny that in the back of my mind there's a tempting "final solution" to resolve some of my challenges, but I have to refrain from crossing into the dark side. I'll play nice. We can do alot in ministry, but if we have not love, it will amount to nothing.

Like somebody said, ministry would be a whole lot of fun if not for people. If you laughed, you're probably in full time ministry too. Or have a foot in already.

No matter. I'm still in high spirits this week. I wonder why.

I have a wanton mee craving. Actually, I want a Big Breakfast from Macs but seeing as how it's noon... Maybe this is why people want to be rich and powerful. So that they can demand to have muffins whenever they want one.

Oh and today's my sister's birthday. *gasp* Ben has a sister? Yes he does. It's funny how people react that way everytime. Anyway. Like I was saying, today is my sister's birthday and I forgot to get her something. Lol. Ah well. I suppose a mention in my blog counts as a present eh? Happy birthday dear sister.

posted by NEB at 11:55 AM

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