Surprisingly my sister did better than I did for the Os. But she did deserves it. She put in alot of effort this year, unlike me (kids - studying on the day of the exam is NOT a good strategy). So she's a 20-pointer, 3 points less than I scored, earning her a PSP. A PSP. My parents never got me a PSP after my Os. And I thought I was the favorite.

Anyway. Thomas found this really cool do-it-yourself paper camera. Supposedly it does work, using 35mm film, and so the 2 of us spent Friday afternoon on our little art project, cutting out the camera parts and sticking them onto cardboard. We'll try and put it all together on Tues or Wed when we get back to the office. Hopefully I can post up some pics by next month. Paper cams - taking lomography to the next level.

Speaking of lomography. I almost went nuts while driving along Selegie today. It happened to be Thaipusam and there was the usual procession of devotees walking with their kavadis (the youngest couldn't possibly be older than 10). And today was one of the days where I decided not to bring my fisheye cam. The fact that traffic was literally crawling, allowing me full view of the procession didn't help either. Note to self: always bring your fisheye with you, in case of emergencies like these.

Spiritual warfare again today. Came to the rehearsal all prepped up and ready to go but by the end of the rehearsal I was, in a word, livid. Ok not that bad. Annoyed, more like. Either way a few of us involved were really struggling to submit our frustration to God. The rehearsal itself was fine, but it was the external factors that gave me a pounding.

1) I was slightly irritated when this worship leader from another service came and insisted that our worship leader drop what she was doing and help co-ordinate his rehearsal. To be fair, they really were struggling, but that is still no excuse to throw a spanner into the works and disrupt another on-going rehearsal. And what irked me even more was the fact that we did have a guitarist there who was willing to help iron out all the technicalities but this guy wasn't even given a chance to try. My heart almost broke when I saw the guitarist's expression as he told me. But this is still a pretty minor issue that can easily be resolved through simply explaining things to the worship leader in question. I mean I know that he didn't mean to disrupt things. He needed help and got desperate. That's all there is to it.

The second issue was the real annoyance. To you - though I know you don't read my blog(then again I suspect you probably will read this soon) I thought we settled this already. I was so glad that you understood our point of view and that we did have essentially the same principles. Now we see that you obviously didn't like that conclusion and still feel that we are in the wrong (which is still open to debate). You've raised the whole issue again, this time even drawing boundaries as to where I do and do not have authority. Well if I were to be nasty, I would just withdraw the support we've been giving and just look after the interests of the youth ministry, the way things were 2 years ago. But that's not what I want, because we are one church. Why draw up such divisive lines?

Seriously - I'm trying to be impartial here and look at both sides of the coin. But there really seems to be no reasonable logic to the way things have been handled.

Pray for me. I have no idea how I can play for worship tommorrow in such a state. Relying on God has become so difficult with all this frustration clogging my mind.

posted by NEB at 12:36 AM

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